So i wasn't going to eat today but just my luck my sister has other plans!since my parents are away i thought it would be the perfect time to not eat and be able to get away with it!my sister decided to cook us dinner and made me eat it i refused however she made me i ate as little as i could get away with. i purged after but i still feel so week for having to eat it i spose tomorrow is another day going to exercise like crazy and not eat to make up for it. 

going on holiday tomorrow to Wales with my friend and her parents for a week worried but i can do it.i can fool them and still eat as little as possible!i hope anyway lol. all my friendwants to do is get off with the boys there, i dont have to worry about that because no boys will take any notice that im there, especially if shes there she loud confident and flirty i am none of those. : ( o well ill be more focused on my calorie intake to care about boys anyway! my brother has been watching me closly thinking im not eating right and has been telling my mum i told her hes talking crap but now she keeps asking me what ive eaten every day and i feel bad lying to her, but im not goin to let that stop me ive come too far!

my mum has recently cheated on my dad with another man the tention is really buildind up in the house me and my mum are close so she can tell that something aint right with me she keeps questioning me if im eating and i reply that i am but we both no im lying. we all do stuff we shouldnt right?so the affair is hers and the disorder is mine, my own little thing that no one can intefear with because im incontrol of it. Flo one of my friends is anorexic luckily everyone is worrying about her atm so no one is noticing me, hopefully it will be like that for a while so no one will really notice that ive lost too much weight by the time its all blown over.